Sunday, July 27, 2008
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Bullies at school
Thursday, July 03, 2008
Parenting - never too late to start
you may be a natural
just start parenting
Friday, June 27, 2008
Noone is perfect (parents included)
they will learn from you
Friday, May 16, 2008
Natural Disasters
i have also the opportunity to go dujiangyan, jiuzhaigou, panda nature reserve etc
these are all so close to the epi-centre, wolong panda nature reserve is only 30km away...
i sadden me to see such a bad earthquake to hit this part of the country which is so close to my heart
i thank God for the blessings i have
appreciaion for all the blessings we have here
my heart goes out to those people in Sichuan province
and to those who are badly hit / affected by this natural disaster
God Bless
Monday, March 10, 2008
my idea of an ideal holiday
to zzzz in & not worry about schedule....
to follow the mood of the weather....to fit my schedule
to stretch & hv the wind blowing in my face....
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
what is beautiful to you.....
Monday, February 25, 2008
i love my country...but am getting frustrated...
Friday, February 22, 2008
experience or knowledge
of course the best is both....but then it is not easy to 'have the cake and eat it'
i am more slanted towards experience as experience really helps to avoid mistakes while if without experience, the next best is to gather as much knowledge as possible....
but certain things do not allowed for experience....it is like once in a lifetime...
haiya....this topic is getting too heavy....
Sunday, December 23, 2007
that's me...
Friday, December 21, 2007
what is this life?
so can i do to be more meaningful
to contribute to to this world...
instead of living a mundane existence...
come and go without a trace...
don't get me wrong....i don't want to be a hero
and don't want to be someone with a big name...
i just want to make a difference to everything and everyone i meet in my life
even a slight one....make a better difference
in fact...that's why i am staying on in my job...
thou many many people including my colleagues told me to seek for greener pasture (better compensation)
but to me....money is not everything.....although financial independent is :-)
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Leave margin in life….
i think this entry serves to remind myself more than you who are reading...
no more
i have decided that i will not buy any more shoes, clothes and bags for this year...
luckily there is only one more month to go...till the end of the year...
else I wonder how i survive without shopping....cant blame me....i am a woman!
but on a serious note, i desperately need to look for something that can nourish my heart...
not shopping...not endless buying....yes....it is called shopping therapy....but it only heals temporary...
it is not healthy for long term....so now....my objective is to list down the things to do that can make me heart...i think one of them must be making others happy
hmmm
Thursday, September 20, 2007
shooting star
i just saw a meteor on the way home a while ago....at around 8:45pm
it is a green bright meteor....what a wonderful sight....*grin
my first time ;)
Sunday, September 02, 2007
fairytale
my selfish list
Thursday, July 26, 2007
call me selfish
1) driving seat....why? bcos i just don't like changing the seat positioning...
i may sounded very weird...but i just don't like....
2) my pc....that's it is call personal...don't u think so?
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Accident prone
Friday, June 08, 2007
high maintainence
it may be coined as a happy problem 'demand exceeded supply many times'
and without warning...so we are unable to supply based on our earlier marketing effort
but i faced the customers daily
their unhappiness, unable to comprehend....bcos i can't tell them we can't support the demand...
being in marketing...i have to put it in a very 'quality' way....
but it is like putting my reputation at stake...
being me....i just don't like that feeling
i was the one marketing to them...telling them the information
now with changes internally....i have to change my statement...
the feeling isn't great...bcos i m a lousy liar...
and then i have been feeling this pain in my knee...there is no significant sign of bruises on the knee...
but i felt sharp pain when i walk or take the stair....
and i can't bend my knee....i juz don't know what is happening in my life...
so i took half a off from work today after getting a earful from the customers this morning
i decided to chop off my reasonably long hair....
and while doing my hair...decide to pamper myself and go for pedicure
it is my first time and the feeling was great...
the only imperfection is that i couldn't choose a bright red nail paint
bcos i totally forgot...until the pedicure lady reminded me that i have a broken toenail (outcome of my trip to kathmandu)
it is a pity that my digital camera is not working
else i would take some nice pretty toes to show off :-p
if u were to ask me "are you a high maintainence person today?"
i will surely tell you "yes, i am" :)
at least for that moment....it is like....why am i working so hard....if i don't pamper myself...
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
so sad
i broke my digital camera today
sob sob....
no picture from now on until i get my new camera
it was already half gone....and i was trying to take a picture when the len refused to return to off position
while trying to replace the battery
i dropped the camera again
this time, the len is broken and could take any more picture
and it can't retract back to off position
look like i really messed it up....so sad....
Saturday, May 26, 2007
tv
was very surprised when he learnt that i do not switch on tv in the hotel room
wherever i stayed....
again i 'm the adnormal customer...
i even hate it when the tv automatically turn on whenever i slot in the room key....
I told him i didn't like it....first thing i do is to go and turn it off....
am i a freak?
Thursday, May 24, 2007
i'm a freak
i don't know....i just don't act according to pple expectation
i like to do things out of ordinary....
and get on majority of the pple nerve
so since i don't live up to the majority expectation - norm behavior...
i myself decided i'm a freak instead of labelling the others as freak
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
worse trip experience at the bkk airport
well...i must say it really gives me a very bad impression...
our gate of arrival is C
the other gate is E....
so based on logic...how far can E be from C...
C...D....E....right
but i think E is right at the other end of E...
and there wasn't any layout nor signal to signal that E is very very very very very far.....
during the last 2 trips....they are all pretty nearby....
so we walked and walked and walked....then we start to run....bcos we missed the 10 mins gate close before departure time....
gate E is at least 1 km away from C!!!!
and we have to walk thru the huge shopping area inside the airport....
there is no travellator....just crowd of pple...that we need to navigate...
some monuments in the ways....
cafe in the middle blocking....
rows of shops on both sides...
finally when we reach the clearance area...
the system is paging for us....
the whole plane is waiting for us....they will wait...i'm not worried
bcos they know we are in the airport....our luggages are loaded...
they don't want to waste the time removing it from the cargos....
but it is a bad experience....overall
Saturday, May 12, 2007
Thursday, May 03, 2007
It's May....
Your mind is in great turmoil right now, dear Libra, so it's not surprising that you can't pay much attention to anything. It's as though your conception of the world has been inexorably changed, and you see your love life and career with new eyes. Even so, you feel compelled to pick up the pieces of the past and save them. The day ahead should help you let go of the old world.
sometimes i wonder why it is so accurate....
actually...i wanted to write about something else...in another blog...which i write once a month (at least) in the beginning of the month...i drafted it...i wanted to give up on something...but i don't know what is stopping me...i am in a dilemma...i know what i should do....but i'm not doing it....hence the title...it's May....
Sunday, April 29, 2007
one of my summer survival tools
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
appreciation
i was recently in delhi, india
the temp can go as high as 43 degree cel
and there are power shortage
mind you...it is not even the peak of summer
being born and bred in Singapore
that makes me really appreciate what we have here
and in a way....reluctant to venture abroad
unless things are in ideal settingbut is there?
we do have our fair share of unhappiness here
especially over freedom and control
but life is never perfect
be content no matter where you are...
always look at the positive side of things
and everything will turn out rosy in your eyes
Friday, April 13, 2007
am i getting old
i opened up a new entry page as something came into my mind
just was about to start writing...
someone walked in and had a chat...
the next moment...the writing, the topic and the passion were gone
i can't even remember what was it that i wanted to write on
although moments ago...i felt it so strongly that i wanted to pen it down
how i wish someone can invent a small little electronic notebook that can note down all my thots
so many things come to my mind when i was taking my shower...when i was driving...when i was having lunch...but i just didn't have the chance to write them down....and i can't recall a thing minutes later...
why is that so? am i getting old?
Monday, April 09, 2007
Jealousy at work
why do i always encounter it...
do i really look so confident on the outside...
do i really attract the envy of pple surrounding me...
why do they always say things that hurt...
most recent case, a long time friend of mine A was 'shocked' to hear that i'm doing a master program...
i heard this from another friend B....
B said that A was not happy....said that I hide from her...
but B reminded her that I did say i am doing a course...
it is A who didn't ask and assume...
anyway...since I have my bachelor...of course the next to do is master...
what's the big deal...why shd A had such a big reaction? is jealous at work?
A is always the one who will be sarcastic towards me over minor things...
anyway....i took them along my stride...that's life...i just know that in my story, she is the villian character...heehee
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Is inner beauty no longer impt?
is knowledge consider beautiful?
does kindness make a person more beautiful?
to me...inner beauty supercede external...
but i wonder is my thinking outdated in this 21st century?
what trigger this topic of discussion
i was out with my friends for a gathering
and the topic on their facials, IHL, peel, laser, slimming sessions etc etc
and the thing is....i didn't even notice the 'slimmer' friend....the other friend with 'fairer face'...
they make me think...why place so much emphasis on external beauty
or is it something wrong with me...why didn't i notice their changes...and why didn't i think it is impt...to me...i always ask them to read this book...sign up for this course...
their excuses were that they don't like books as much as i do, they are more vain...i don't think my friends changed so much...i don't think i'm much difference from them...
but i wonder...has this got to do with the extensive advertisements on external beauty
given the daily bombardment of cosmetic advertisement, slimming advertisement etc
one of them even commented that...the best thing to them will be that i notice the difference...then their 'beauty regime' will be considered a success because i'm the total 'blockhead' in this area.
and the parting shot: do not just think of knowledge as beauty, start placing more impt on my look...
Saturday, March 24, 2007
wisdom
be happy anyway
there are pple who have will hurt you
forgive anyway
there are pple who will not appreciate your generosity
do good anyway
there are pple who will not appreciate your kindness
be kind anyway
there are pple who will abuse the trust you give them
trust anyway
there are pple who misappropriate the funds
do charity anyway
you are bound to get hurt when you love
love anyway
so many thoughts on my mind
and so many thoughts going thru my mind
and i hv no time to put them down on b/w
again....another very hectic day for me....
awake for more than 20 hrs
done reporters interview...radio talk show...presentations
dinner...play games....eat durain
Saturday, March 17, 2007
suddenly
a visit the Keukenhof Gardens in Amsterdam would be wonderful
drop everything and go
just forget about my worry...and see all the tulips in full bloom...
Sunday, March 04, 2007
snow in beijing
my hotel room is facing inwards, i do not get a outside view
i woke up this morning going for breakfast discovering that it is snowing outside...
what a nice wonderful morning...
as it is sunday...we got a window seat in full view of the snowing street outside...
it is a march snow...
and the biggest snow this winter...
due to the global warming effect...
this winter is extremely warm...
hence this snow is considered quite heavy
although in absolute term, it is not...only some accummulated on the tree branches, cars etc
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Iron pill
but my gosh...it is giving me a hard time in the loo
already i have this problem before the donation
that's why i don't even taking iron supplement when i was diagnosed as being anemia last year...
that's the outcome of sacrifing, little suffering is worth everything as long as it can save live/s
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
something that is worth noting down
on the third day of CNY, i went to donate blood...
the thot first occurred in 2006 when i read in the newspaper that the bloodbank is in shortage of blood...
however, a check on my blood showed that i was below the requirement of haemoglobin level of at least 12.5 g/dl and mine was below it... so the idea was shelved and I was disappointed.
so this 2007, i'm determined to do it since i appeared well to most pple. ..thou i still feel faint sometimes
the bloodbank was quiet...there is less than 10 people around (excluding the staff).
I was nervous but went ahead to fill in the form and do the checklist.
There wasn't much waiting, a brief medical interview was done and I was to check my veins by the nurse as they appeared to 'thin' or 'light'.
The doc is worried they may not be able to draw blood easily...
but that was settled easily (i guess they are really in need of blood and no harm trying)
A quick check of blood at the centre showed that i'm eligible for the donation, at least no fever and haemoglobin level has reached the requirement.
I quickly moved into the donation area, it is a very comfortable area and the nurses are all very friendly.
I expected much pain but surprise surprise, they administered anesthetic to the area and hence i don't feel much pain at all...
initially, the machine made some noise bcos my blood flow was a bit too slow for its liking...haha...
so i was told to squeeze a heart-shape stress ball to help in the pumping....for every 3 secs...hence the drawing of blood became quite steady and was completed in about 10 mins....450ml in all...in one bag
so far, the experience was very satisfying...I felt a great sense of accomplishment and also surprising....peace...
but what happened in the next hour was very very scary...i was over confident and hence over stretch myself...suddenly i felt blackness in front of me...luckily i was in a car and have to quick lie down to get the blood flow back to my brain... i was near the edge of blackout...and it took me an hour to recover...at one stage i was have difficulty breathing...
this encounter was really really very scary...luckily my family was with me...
but it will not stop me from donating in future...
just that i need to note that i must take extra care and not have the same thing happening...
rest immediately is necessary...
Sunday, February 11, 2007
what can be more evil
1st, bcos there is no other better show...
2nd, rem i read the review somewhere...seem controversy...i thot maybe worth seeing
in fact, not much storyline...but the filming was pretty good...i especially like the part where the imperial guard was sent to kill the prince...once at his place...the way they slide down the white cloth...was very very well done....2nd is at the snow covered border...
but the part that left the most impression is when it was asked "what other thing can be more poisionous than a lethal poison" - the ans : "the human heart"
well...u hv to understand mandarin to appreciate this sentence. bcoz in mandarin poison and evil can interchange in usage...
well said...
Friday, February 09, 2007
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
i need space
i realised how much we needed space
looking at the skyscrapers and the multi lanes roads....
i think i can nvr live long in a cramp space
especially me...
then surprise surprise
i read on the next day on the paper that S'pore is gearing for 6.5m population
omg....i can't believe it...
given the hot climate...it is going to be worse
some may argue that seoul is bad...11m in a space similar size to s'pore
but...think about it....it is not too bad given that the weather is cool most times
hence pple prefer to be cozy compared to s'pore...juz some theories on my part...
Monday, January 08, 2007
coincidental
doesn't this sound the same as my earlier entry....
juz find it so coincidental...this person is from nepal...work in hongkong and now based in australia.....
Sunday, January 07, 2007
at that moment in time
how many cars can you drive?
how many watches can you wear?
how many pairs of shoe can you be on your feet?
think hard....if the answer is only one....stop and smell the flowers...
then put more shoes on the feet of children....
Thursday, December 07, 2006
distraught
it is page after page of bad news...
young father-to-be sudden death
cabby who got a heart-attack
dad lost his life while attempting to save his family
i didn't have the heart to finish reading the last article...
i'm distraught by all these bad news...
my heart felt heavy....like there are tons of stone tied to it...pulling it into deep valley...
very depressing....
it is near festive season...but i'm feeling more weary than ever...
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Hairy crabs
Thursday, October 26, 2006
compliment
recently over dinner in shanghai with my agent and both our colleagues
my agent mentioned to me that among so many s'porean reps she has,
i am the only one who can keep up with her speed of speaking mandarin
able to understand and converse with her without her having to slow down and use simpler terms
and she told me the most impressive part is that I can converse with her without a single usage of english words in my conversation...
i thank my grandpa for it and also my natural talent ;-)
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Happy Birthday!
i know this is not fairytale...
i know this is impossible
but wish is still wish
may i wish for health & happiness in the years that follow....
happy birthday!
Monday, October 02, 2006
Hello kitty nissan march
It's driven by a MAN! can you believed it...
the car is so cute...with the front logo a hello kitty face that can lit up...
the side of the car is also printed with hello kitty princess or something like that...
what a mis-match....
I noticed where it is parked and wanted to take a picture of it...
but by the time i find a parking space and come back...he is ready to leave :(
so sad...I didn't manage to capture it...
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Fairytale
i thought for a while abt this qn...and i think it is bcos
i wanted very much to believe in fairytalein fairytale...the characters are all so clearly depicted.
i am able to tell a good guy from a bad...there is a happily ever after story
it is so different in reality...
maybe i just want to escape from the cruelty of life...
think about this...in reality...does anyone has this word "i'm bad" written on the forehead...no way...there are pple who look so sweet on the outside but are so evil inside...pple who can pretend so well...that u don't even know it when u r conned...
there is a saying that the eyes are the windows to a person's heart...it is possible to see a person's true self through the eyes...although i don't dispute that but i think it will be too late by then...bcos a lot of close contacts are required to be able to see thru the eyes...
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
No more chocolate for me
why?
i used to be able to eat a whole box of chocolate without any side effect
but recently....things are different
I just need to eat a small little bar...and sob sob...i will get sore throat and pimples will be popping out by mad...
can you believed it! at this age...i can still be getting pimples...
now i wonder how long can i last ^_^
Monday, September 18, 2006
Appreciation
never to compare with the jones...bcos as human beings...once again we will only pick the better things others have to compare...and we will always appear so worse off...rem...the grass is always greener on the other side...and also bcos pple will always present the best for others to see...you will not get to see the 'dirty linen'...of course unless there is a strategy to showcase it purposely...
so to me...appreciation comes in (for example)
1) have a smooth ride in the morning to work (read: beating all the traffic lights...haha)
2) hearing a nice song with a lyric that so reflect my current mood
3) when i catch a nice sunset on the way home from work
4) when i chanced upon a nice blooming flower
5) when that special someone initiated a morning *muack* for me... (read: still searching/hoping/waiting)
etc etc etc
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Attitude
I believe:
1) If you wake up in the morning loathing to go to work...i personally think it is time to relook into your choice of work. It could be the pple at work, not work per se...
2) work as hobby and hobby as work
3) look for that something that u luv to do so much that u'll do it even for free
4) if you work solely for financial purpose, you will not last long...you'll end up like a walking zombie...not knowing how to appreciate the happiness of your life...
see...even writing a short blog entry can be so beautiful ^_^
remember...the word is passion
what trigger this topic about attitude?
I'm suppose to receive 2 couriers from China containing important original document. One arrived and the other did not. However, my counterpart in China checked and the courier company in S'pore insisted that it was delivered to someone somewhere in the office. The gist is that we finally discovered that the parcel is missing-in-action and the courier company has no idea where is it...however...still pushing the blame to the receiving party...to me...this is attitude problem...even when i clearly stated that only one of the parcel was received, they can turn around and tell the china side that i did receive...i'm ashamed of such pple...
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Monday, September 04, 2006
I am seeking...
what do I love to do so much that i'll do it for free...
i hv set my sights in this direction...i think if i ever found it...it will really be a blessing...
Saturday, September 02, 2006
Official guide to yummy food

Lay's Cool Cucumber flavor...this is an example of the chip that get pple back home crazy...:)
let me know if u can find in S'pore...else i always got to search the supermarkets and airflown one lugguage home ^_^
Monday, August 28, 2006
Another realisation
ystd a frnd makes me realise that i can be quite bossy at times...
now i have decided that i will be mindful of it...
(read: doesn't mean it will not happen again or stop immediately...just that i will be careful...and hopefully in the near future...no more!)
here i'm blogging...keeping a record...so that when i ever forget along my life...
when i occassionally read my own blog...it will remind me...that i made a decision to change!
that i need to control this 'big sis' kind of character...aiyo...this really makes me sound so old...
here...i'm not trying to find excuses for my 'bossi-ness'...but nobody knows my past...
but being the elder child...from the background i came from...
the need to be independent from very young...the need to care for the family from a young age
and not the other way round...add to my current character...
but i didnt really realise that until ystd
or rather it fully dawns on me...the world i'm living in...not many pple can accept such a character...especially from a woman...i think i must have offended many pple along the way w/o realising it...
so from now on...i must be constantly minful...and it is not only applies to my frnds...it includes my colleagues
thanks to my frnd...if you are reading this...u know who u r...
Friday, August 18, 2006
i seek to understand myself better...
Idealistic, loyal to their values and to people who are important to them.
Want an external life that is congruent with their values.
Curious, quick to see possibilites, can be catalysts for implementing ideas.
Seek to understand people and to help them fulfill their potential.
Adaptable, flexible, and accepting unless a value is threatened.
As J & P are very close...i found another part that I need to add:
Want to understand what motivates people and are insightful about others
Conscientious and committed to their firm values.
a very good description of me...
Thursday, August 17, 2006
MBTI
i know my weaknesses and it is always very draining when i got to do the things opposite to my strengths...
it takes a lot effort...to control and keep inline...
anyway...ystd we did the MBTI score and it is a confirmation of my own understanding of myself...
my estimate type is exactly the same as reported type...not bad...work harder J@net...^_^
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Celebrate left-hander day
Friday, August 11, 2006
Guilty
Ok, i'm guilty...of uploading mundane stuff...like talking abt McDonald...what for?
I got nothing to say? actually i wrote some...but i 'drafted' them...
i didn't dare to publish...very inner feelings/thoughts...
i'm afraid to share...not with strangers who don't know me...but pple (whom i know) may chance upon it...
why am i afraid...it is something psychological...i need to work on it...and find out the reason one of these days...till then...con't to read my nonsense :)
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Are there any more countries in this world without McDonald's?
it is great news...i can live life w/o good old Mac...i can survive...
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Today horoscope reading
I don't mind if it come true...
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Eulogy
i want to come up with 6 traits that can really define me...in my short span on earth...
i think hard and so far...here they are
1) intelligent
2) kind/soft hearted
3) magnanimous
4) fun to be with
5) high integrity
6) caring
that i want to be remembered by...
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Are there any countries in the world without a McDonald's?
Answer: Nepal
Monday, July 03, 2006
It's summer
Reasons being
1) the sunset is much later...I seems to be able to accomplish more (read: overwork)
2) i get to travel real light...no heavy coat and thermal wear
3) no dry skin problem
4) no cold weather to battle with
so...enjoy while it lasts...bcos time waits for no man!
Saturday, July 01, 2006
No entries for a long time
partly due to no internet access to blogspot...i was overseas...in liaoning that ban blogspot...
partly due to too many journal to update...
Thursday, June 22, 2006
It's raining
it didn't stop until this morning while i was getting ready for what...what a wonderful nite...:)
to zzz while it is raining outside..under the cozy blanket...
my horoscope reading today...
You may feel somewhat stifled and inhibited today, dear Libra. Oddly enough, this feeling will not come from any outside influence; rather, the source of your discomfort comes from inside yourself. You can look for solutions by examining your personal commitment to your work or study. You may then realize that you won't find fulfillment unless you take a few more risks.
what risks? i'm wondering...
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Extract of the xray report
"soft tissue swelling noted around the medial malleolus
small marginal osteophytes are noted"
in the mean time...any idea what medial malleolus n osteophytes mean??? [scratch head]
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
28 days of sprained ankle
after visiting my GP last evening...the recommendation is for me to go for an xray
bcos the swell is still bad...
therefore to have a piece of mind...i'm going to go this afternoon to get it examine...
hopefully nothing is wrong except i need more rest...(which i also couldn't afford)
life is short...life is tough...must take time off...but i hate loneliness...and can't find anyone with time to go away with me at this point in time...the earliest person that can go with me is in Dec...can i survive until then?
ps: no time to download my pictures...no time to do my auction...no time to...
Saturday, June 17, 2006
pls pray for me
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Healing takes time

Visited the TCM this evening again and the doc said the feet is still pretty swollen. 3 weeks after the fall. Torn ligament will take a long time to heal...i need take oral medication to reduce the swelling...i must confess that i'm not a oral medication person...i simply hate it...not juz the swallowing /drinking part...but also following the schedule...the amt etc...i'm juz not the type of person...
but i'm desperate now...it is not healing...i'm diligently taking the medication...
and i also must confess that i only learn to swallow medication at 18...that's not too long ago! ok, i fabricated the last part...heehee
juz wish me a speedy recovery
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
your own God
If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
I have been betrayed...by someone i trusted the most...and the feeling is really really really really really (thousand times) lousy...
During moments of weakness, moment of loss...we have no choice but to look towards something beyond...and based on trust...to see us through...
but i wish hard that nobody...in no way...will have to go through what i'm going thru...
do i hope for a miracle...? of course! who couldn't use a miracle?!
Sunday, June 11, 2006
What a feet!
the result-> i'm walking with a limp now...the ankle still felt painful when i walk with heel...the word to use is unbalance feeling in the feet...
the outcome -> i'm going home during lunch time to get my ankle guard and change into slipper... ):
...sigh....when will it heal???
hapi
she is my childhood frd from school
she migrated to oz last year...and we met up once last Oct when she came back for a visit
and was 7 mths pregnant...
now the baby is 7 mths old...how time flies...
i wish to take some time off to visit her...
anyway...it is always a lift to the heart whenever old frd call or come by
Monday, June 05, 2006
Quote names
telling me they know this director, they know met this principal...
some pple even like to drop names...who and who is their neighbor
omg...give me a break...
i felt that tellin' them in the face "so what"
what is your own credit? how can u contribute to this project...
i dun believe in 'giving in' to who-and-who
but the society is so "searching-for-the-right-word-to-use"...okie...here's the word "mercenary"
this type of thing still work
really disheartening...
Story
and you are the lead actor/actress in your story...
others will also become the lead in your story beside their own...
some will be lead temporary...some will stay permanent...
and then there are others who will only be playing supporting roles...and many such pple...
more than the lead...coz' how many leads can a story have? ^_^
so...let's live every chapter beautifully...(telling myself)
Sunday, June 04, 2006
amazing race
1- i went overseas on a biz trip
something i can't get out bcos the trip was scheduled in advance and the sprained ankle came last min before i am due for departure.
2- i brought an assoicate to geylang to eat durian
i promised him during his last trip here and was scheduled too before the sprained ankle...and if i can make the overseas trip...what is a short trip to geylang
**but the ankle became sore again after the trip :(
3- went to the beach
4- i went GSS shopping - someone even bang her stroller on me...goodness
5- i went to wild wild wet...
6- life carries on as usual...no one really bothers
Saturday, June 03, 2006
let go and move on
why can't i juz let go and move on
why can't i juz leave...
why must i be here suffering such humiliation
why...GOD!
what did i do wrong?
why must punish me?
and why use such harsh punishment...
i dun want any revenge...and i am not waiting to see any retribution...i juz want to move on...
God...pls help me...get on...i want to leave behind this unpleasant part of my life and move on...
pls...i beg you to help me...help me get on...i dun wanna forget...i dun wanna forgive...bcos i know it will be hard...i juz want to get out...
Friday, June 02, 2006
Thursday, June 01, 2006
make light of the moment
the situation is like this
1+ torn both ligaments supporting ankle
2+ to be able to walk properly = 3 weeks
3+ to heal = 3 months
4+ wrapped chinese herbs overnite
5+ steam and soak in boiled herbs for 5 consecutive days (each time takes me 3 hrs)
6+ no walk on uneven terrain
situation is improving.
i am even starting to enjoy telling the story on how-i-fall to pple i know...
and make a joke out of it...enjoy seeing them laugh...haha
joke 1
in brief = i missed a step + & fell + ankle got twisted in a funny angle which i no longer can describe + i sat on the ankle + before i start to diet...imagine the weight on that poor tiny ankle...
joke 2
i'm out of action juz like rooney...
joke 3 my own theory
it is God punishment on me...for buying too many pairs of heels...hahaha
from this event i discovered that my ankle is pretty small...heehee...i need an ankle guard of size small...
Monday, May 29, 2006
yuck-yuck-yuck
Thursday, May 25, 2006
The day i sprained my ankle
what happened is that my brain will think ahead of my action...and i get into accidents bcoz of that...
there was this time back in Nov when i unlocked my car, open the door and before i got in, i closed the door on myself and hurt my forehead...quite badly...
Today...i sprained my left feet ... early in the morning... i wasn't wearing my specs...but wasn't totally blind...was rushing down the stair to pick up some hangers from the laundry area...i was 2 steps away from the base and my brain was thinking which slipper shd i take at the base...so i missed a step on the stair and that's it...my life took a turn... i really have no idea which angle my feet was at...but it was at a funny angle ...the pain was excruciating, i dun even have the voice to cry out... but tears were rolling down my cheeks...
finally when i managed to put my feet back to normal position
i was still hoping that it is just a minor injury and maybe only some bruises...although i was walking with a limp
but before noon, my ankle was swollen...like an elephant feet...the bad news is i got a flight to China tmr as I am scheduled to give a seminar and meet-parents session in China on Sat
i hope i can pull thru this stage...
Monday, May 22, 2006
Sunday, May 21, 2006
Roller-coaster emotions
someone once told me...that jumping is the 'best' suicide method
coz it is painless...it hits u before u even know it...
i juz thot it will be "end-all-for-me" if i juz jump from a 50th storey...
why am i entertaining such a thot today again...
guess the person wont be hapi to know this
but i juz felt the sudden urge to end all
it will be like the end of all the pains I have been feeling and the hurts that I have been getting
at the same time...
i keep telling myself that nothing is too much to take
i am strong enough...
i must live for myself and not others...
as long as i'm happy...but i'm not happy...bcos of the selfishness i see in pple surrounding me
why can't pple be more generous, be less self-centered...
i wish too that i can get out of all this madness soon...God...give me strength!
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
the 49 days
brings back so many memories I hold inside
how i wish u were still in sight
the room will be full of light
will time heal...nobody knew
at this point
only one step at a time
Monday, May 15, 2006
adjusting back to +8 timezone
adjusting back to home timezone is much easier than away...
no wonder in soccer, it is always advantages to be on home ground as compared to away :)
anyway, like the previous times...i didn't have any problem getting back to local timezone...
didn't even feel the jetlag at all...
maybe coz i can zzz like a pig anytime of the day :)
thank goodness i have such a wonderful skill...
actually i was pretty worried on the plane back...
the flight from LAX is at 11:15pm (-6 timezone where I spend the last 10 days) where LAX is -8 timezone. when we are on board, dinner was still serve, and that is like 12midnight my tummy time...of course i can't stomach anything...the gentleman beside me still ask why am i not eating...i got to explain WHY...anyway...i went to zzz almost immediately...and the next time i woke up...i think it was abt 6 hrs later...my eyes are now wide open and i can't go to bed...i tried listening to some boring audio story...and that put me to slumber for a while...generally i think i was a bit hungry too as my last meal was at 1pm (which is 17 hrs ago)...so from then on...i can't zzz...& i thot this time i'm sure gg to suffer from jetlag when i reach home...surprisingly nothing of the sort...hooray...was tired a earlier and zzz earlier...but nothing much affected :0 i hope so...hopefully my project mates think so too...
Saturday, May 13, 2006
The Dallas Morning News
Libra
invest in an area that you have long been curious about. Get some of these old questions answered and you'll sleep better at night...
interesting...i wonder which area :0
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
lazing around on a mid week
You might find yourself just wanting to stick to the couch today, dear Libra. This is fine. Don't even get up if you don't want to. You are probably better off just sticking close to home and enjoying a good video tonight. If people ask you how you are doing, give them an honest answer. Others will be able to see right through you, so don't try to hide your feelings. Express them. Today is a good day to say how you really feel.
once again...how so true...today i got a conference to attend...but i felt so lethargic...dun feel like moving at all...dun feel like getting out of the room...just sitting in front of the window enjoying the scenary from level 17...dun even feel like exploring this lovely city in the lovely weather...i luv the !dea of having the whole day on my hand...plus my 'handsome' driver is going out of town for a meeting...hope he doesn't ask me what i did today when i see him tomorrow...i really dun feel like giving him an honest answer...yeap...maybe i will tell him i went over to his galleria...
last nite we juz had a cowboy nite...at the ranch...with some rodeo...nothing of brokeback mt sort...heehee
it was pretty fun...but as usual...i was still feeling tired...slept on the way there at 6pm in the evening...but at least that helps me lasted until 1:30am to call back home...which is 13 hrs ahead...

a picture to share on last evening...
Sunday, May 07, 2006
my jetlag
totally forgot about the jetlag experience...
now it hits me again...
it is actually 5am, i'm sitting fully awake in my hotel...but it is 6pm back home...
1st the transit at LA was a gruelling 8 hrs wait...we arrived at 4:30pm and the next flight is only going out at 00:15...
by the time we reach our final destination, it was only 5am...
at the hotel, it was only 7am. we checked in and washup but make it a point not to sleep...
by 3pm local...we were really tired...but pushing on...
6pm local time is a really challenge as we have not gone to bed for 48 hrs...
i managed to last until 11pm local time when i knocked out...i thot i will be able to sleep for a whole stretch...but trust Jeff...he said i shd be thankful is i don't wake up at 2am...
now...i woke up at 1am, 3am, 5am...sux...it is the biological clock in the body...look like i better go back to bed and laze around instead of writing some stupid blog...to get over my jetlag...
Thursday, May 04, 2006
!deas
like when i am driving...when i'm in the shower...when i'm in a meeting...when i'm....
as long as i'm not at my desk...
but i got a BIG problem...if i dun hv a pen and paper on hand...
i will definitely forget 99% of the brillant !deas I thot of during those times...
and let me ask u, how to hv a pen and paper when u r showering?
so actually i got a lot of creative !deas, just that they nvr get to see the light...(-,-)
Another day to day beauty
there is this stretch of road...
along bukit timah road
this beautiful stretch of trees...green golden orangy leaves...the colors are so smoothing...
outside the chinese high school...
if you are travelling on this stretch...it is juz on the right side of the road...nex to the canel
this is part of daily beauty...i love to admire this part every morning...especially when the sky is a bit overcast...perfect...make my day
selfishness
but the key is the degree of selfishness that makes a person so...how to describe...can't think of a good word to use...anyway...will come back on this again...
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
discussing Passion again
1) Commitment 2) Dedication...
i remember saying in this blog before that passion may not equate to success...
with these 2 new factors...combined with passion...i think there is a high chance of success...
so take note...add these to whatever you are doing...tell me if you felt good abt it after that...tell me if you are successful when you apply them...
Friday, April 28, 2006
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Beauty to me is...
this morning...after the punctured tyre and the replacement...at about 8:50am... i was driving to office along clementi road and the view was perfect...just like what i decribe above...u dun get it all the time...only at the right time, right place....
Monday, April 10, 2006
Orchid
Orchids are found throughout the world, even at the very edge of the Arctic circle. Their tiny, dust-like seeds can be dispersed far and wide, enabling orchids to grow almost everywhere.
In addition to the vast number of species, there are about 100k man-made orchid hybrids. So, the orchids that you ocme across are most likely hybrids.
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
the most beautiful place on earth - even if it is only for 10 secs
as i was driving home one of the evenings...the sun was setting behind my back...i was going over this flyover...right in front of me....canopy of greenery rainforest lining on both sides of the road..with the blue sky (a bit overcast) as the backdrop...and the setting sunlight shining on the greenery...making them golden brown....the overcast sky made it really romantic...oh...i give anything to see it again....the most beautiful place on earth - even if it is only for 10 secs
i have been on this route at least >100 times...but that was the only encounter...Jan 2006..what a start to the new year! if you believe in being at the right place at the right time...