let go and move on

why...why...why...
why can't i juz let go and move on
why can't i juz leave...
why must i be here suffering such humiliation
why...GOD!
what did i do wrong?
why must punish me?
and why use such harsh punishment...

i dun want any revenge...and i am not waiting to see any retribution...i juz want to move on...
God...pls help me...get on...i want to leave behind this unpleasant part of my life and move on...
pls...i beg you to help me...help me get on...i dun wanna forget...i dun wanna forgive...bcos i know it will be hard...i juz want to get out...