fairytale

what is fairytale to me?

I was told i am too idealistic

princess with charming prince, lovingly lived happily ever after

eternity love & no no to pre-marital sex

my selfish list

additional item

no sharing of bathroom if i have a choice...

am i getting too much? lols

call me selfish

but there are something that i don't like to share
1) driving seat....why? bcos i just don't like changing the seat positioning...
i may sounded very weird...but i just don't like....
2) my pc....that's it is call personal...don't u think so?

Accident prone

Sigh....this is the nail that got into my foot on Sunday

Slight more than a year ago, I sprained my ankle on this exact spot...at the bottom of the stair....and yesterday I got this rusty tiny little nail into my right foot at the top of the stair. The pain is slightly bearable compared to the sprained ankle, but the implication is unknown....

In the end, I got to get a jab on my arm, antibiotics 5 days course, anti-swelling medication and cream based on doc's advise.

What luck am i going thru'.....after harddisk and memory cards reader episode....pray for good luck....

high maintainence

work has not been going smoothly for me
it may be coined as a happy problem 'demand exceeded supply many times'
and without warning...so we are unable to supply based on our earlier marketing effort
but i faced the customers daily
their unhappiness, unable to comprehend....bcos i can't tell them we can't support the demand...
being in marketing...i have to put it in a very 'quality' way....
but it is like putting my reputation at stake...
being me....i just don't like that feeling
i was the one marketing to them...telling them the information
now with changes internally....i have to change my statement...
the feeling isn't great...bcos i m a lousy liar...

and then i have been feeling this pain in my knee...there is no significant sign of bruises on the knee...
but i felt sharp pain when i walk or take the stair....
and i can't bend my knee....i juz don't know what is happening in my life...

so i took half a off from work today after getting a earful from the customers this morning
i decided to chop off my reasonably long hair....
and while doing my hair...decide to pamper myself and go for pedicure
it is my first time and the feeling was great...
the only imperfection is that i couldn't choose a bright red nail paint
bcos i totally forgot...until the pedicure lady reminded me that i have a broken toenail (outcome of my trip to kathmandu)
it is a pity that my digital camera is not working
else i would take some nice pretty toes to show off :-p

if u were to ask me "are you a high maintainence person today?"
i will surely tell you "yes, i am" :)
at least for that moment....it is like....why am i working so hard....if i don't pamper myself...

so sad

it is such a sad day for me....
i broke my digital camera today
sob sob....
no picture from now on until i get my new camera
it was already half gone....and i was trying to take a picture when the len refused to return to off position
while trying to replace the battery
i dropped the camera again
this time, the len is broken and could take any more picture
and it can't retract back to off position
look like i really messed it up....so sad....

tv

a friend of mine who is in the hotel business
was very surprised when he learnt that i do not switch on tv in the hotel room
wherever i stayed....
again i 'm the adnormal customer...
i even hate it when the tv automatically turn on whenever i slot in the room key....
I told him i didn't like it....first thing i do is to go and turn it off....
am i a freak?

i'm a freak

& a complete freak for that matter
i don't know....i just don't act according to pple expectation
i like to do things out of ordinary....
and get on majority of the pple nerve
so since i don't live up to the majority expectation - norm behavior...
i myself decided i'm a freak instead of labelling the others as freak

worse trip experience at the bkk airport

first the transit at suvarnabhumi airport in bkk
well...i must say it really gives me a very bad impression...
our gate of arrival is C
the other gate is E....
so based on logic...how far can E be from C...
C...D....E....right
but i think E is right at the other end of E...
and there wasn't any layout nor signal to signal that E is very very very very very far.....
during the last 2 trips....they are all pretty nearby....
so we walked and walked and walked....then we start to run....bcos we missed the 10 mins gate close before departure time....
gate E is at least 1 km away from C!!!!
and we have to walk thru the huge shopping area inside the airport....
there is no travellator....just crowd of pple...that we need to navigate...
some monuments in the ways....
cafe in the middle blocking....
rows of shops on both sides...
finally when we reach the clearance area...
the system is paging for us....
the whole plane is waiting for us....they will wait...i'm not worried
bcos they know we are in the airport....our luggages are loaded...
they don't want to waste the time removing it from the cargos....
but it is a bad experience....overall

why i have a sweet tooth

my excuse
life is bitter enough….why put more bitter into it???

It's May....

Today...my horoscope reads....

Your mind is in great turmoil right now, dear Libra, so it's not surprising that you can't pay much attention to anything. It's as though your conception of the world has been inexorably changed, and you see your love life and career with new eyes. Even so, you feel compelled to pick up the pieces of the past and save them. The day ahead should help you let go of the old world.

sometimes i wonder why it is so accurate....

actually...i wanted to write about something else...in another blog...which i write once a month (at least) in the beginning of the month...i drafted it...i wanted to give up on something...but i don't know what is stopping me...i am in a dilemma...i know what i should do....but i'm not doing it....hence the title...it's May....

one of my summer survival tools

after so many trips to india...i finally found my summer survival tool....actually this was bought in sg...for the fun of it...and it came in so handy...better than my insect repellent or perfume...secret success ;-)

appreciation

my job brings me around the world working
i was recently in delhi, india
the temp can go as high as 43 degree cel
and there are power shortage
mind you...it is not even the peak of summer
being born and bred in Singapore
that makes me really appreciate what we have here
and in a way....reluctant to venture abroad
unless things are in ideal settingbut is there?
we do have our fair share of unhappiness here
especially over freedom and control
but life is never perfect
be content no matter where you are...
always look at the positive side of things
and everything will turn out rosy in your eyes

am i getting old

so much to write but so little time
i opened up a new entry page as something came into my mind
just was about to start writing...
someone walked in and had a chat...
the next moment...the writing, the topic and the passion were gone
i can't even remember what was it that i wanted to write on
although moments ago...i felt it so strongly that i wanted to pen it down
how i wish someone can invent a small little electronic notebook that can note down all my thots
so many things come to my mind when i was taking my shower...when i was driving...when i was having lunch...but i just didn't have the chance to write them down....and i can't recall a thing minutes later...
why is that so? am i getting old?

Jealousy at work

jealousy is such a scary thing
why do i always encounter it...
do i really look so confident on the outside...
do i really attract the envy of pple surrounding me...
why do they always say things that hurt...
most recent case, a long time friend of mine A was 'shocked' to hear that i'm doing a master program...
i heard this from another friend B....
B said that A was not happy....said that I hide from her...
but B reminded her that I did say i am doing a course...
it is A who didn't ask and assume...
anyway...since I have my bachelor...of course the next to do is master...
what's the big deal...why shd A had such a big reaction? is jealous at work?
A is always the one who will be sarcastic towards me over minor things...
anyway....i took them along my stride...that's life...i just know that in my story, she is the villian character...heehee

Is inner beauty no longer impt?

what is inner beauty?
is knowledge consider beautiful?
does kindness make a person more beautiful?
to me...inner beauty supercede external...
but i wonder is my thinking outdated in this 21st century?

what trigger this topic of discussion
i was out with my friends for a gathering
and the topic on their facials, IHL, peel, laser, slimming sessions etc etc
and the thing is....i didn't even notice the 'slimmer' friend....the other friend with 'fairer face'...

they make me think...why place so much emphasis on external beauty
or is it something wrong with me...why didn't i notice their changes...and why didn't i think it is impt...to me...i always ask them to read this book...sign up for this course...

their excuses were that they don't like books as much as i do, they are more vain...i don't think my friends changed so much...i don't think i'm much difference from them...

but i wonder...has this got to do with the extensive advertisements on external beauty
given the daily bombardment of cosmetic advertisement, slimming advertisement etc

one of them even commented that...the best thing to them will be that i notice the difference...then their 'beauty regime' will be considered a success because i'm the total 'blockhead' in this area.
and the parting shot: do not just think of knowledge as beauty, start placing more impt on my look... is it so importance...will i succumb to all these external thing? how sad if that's all they think about

wisdom

there are things that upset you
be happy anyway

there are pple who have will hurt you
forgive anyway

there are pple who will not appreciate your generosity
do good anyway

there are pple who will not appreciate your kindness
be kind anyway

there are pple who will abuse the trust you give them
trust anyway

there are pple who misappropriate the funds
do charity anyway

you are bound to get hurt when you love
love anyway

so many thoughts on my mind

there are so many things happening
and so many thoughts going thru my mind
and i hv no time to put them down on b/w
again....another very hectic day for me....
awake for more than 20 hrs
done reporters interview...radio talk show...presentations
dinner...play games....eat durain

suddenly

suddenly.....i have the urge to see my favorite flower - tulips
a visit the Keukenhof Gardens in Amsterdam would be wonderful
drop everything and go
just forget about my worry...and see all the tulips in full bloom...

snow in beijing

Finally, a snowing Beijing...

my hotel room is facing inwards, i do not get a outside view
i woke up this morning going for breakfast discovering that it is snowing outside...
what a nice wonderful morning...
as it is sunday...we got a window seat in full view of the snowing street outside...

it is a march snow...
and the biggest snow this winter...
due to the global warming effect...
this winter is extremely warm...
hence this snow is considered quite heavy
although in absolute term, it is not...only some accummulated on the tree branches, cars etc